I have fallen out of love with Lincoln

Watch out - this is a vent blog.  Rob went out to plow the 6 inches of snow that had fallen between the last time we shoveled last night and right now.  He came back in incredulous - during the night our car window had been smashed in.  Things had been disturbed in the car, but anything of value had been taken last month when whoever had gotten into our car.  This is ridiculous!  The reason our cars are parked where they are is because our garage is still in total disarray from the move.  Rob and I had just been venting last night about how frustrating it is that we can't find anything.  While we are incredibly grateful that we had help moving, we did not label things well or put things in this house in an orderly fashion.  And the empty boxes are getting in the way of the garage being organized anytime soon.  So the vehicles are outside.  But our neighbor says he's never had an issue with car vandalism.  What the heck?  Do we look rich?  Cause we are NOT!  In fact we are so close to broke that I am not buying groceries this week until I get my paycheck on Friday.  Granted, we are trying to live debt free.  Maybe I should just give that pipedream up.  Especially since now we have to pay for a broken car window to be fixed!  The whole reason we had to move was because we were broken into for the 2nd time in 2 years.  That didn't include the numerous car breakins we had or the times our toys/bikes were taken from our deck by the neighbor kids - even by young 2 year olds who wandered unsupervised into our yard.  Each time I tried to remind myself it's just stuff.  This is getting REALLY hard to not feel victimized.  I AM A VICTIM.  I do not want to live in that state, but I have to let myself feel the feelings and get over them.  My God is still in control.  Did I mention that the car we were borrowing in CA got broken into?  Yeah - it has followed us EVERYWHERE.  We cannot escape this.  I feel like Job right now.  I wonder if one of my children is next.  It makes me want to leave this place - escape.  I know it can happen anywhere, but it's happened in Lincoln, NE.  While we lived at Rob's parents house, Rob's window got smashed out 3 times.  Our current neighborhood as well as Rob's parent's old neighborhood are nice areas of Lincoln.  People can say "well it was where you were living."  Really?  Cause I don't believe it.  My friends who I consulted before I moved there have never had an issue like we did with break ins.  Right now, I feel sorry for myself.  I am not a person to do that.  That is not me.  But right now I have to be ok feeling that way.  I refuse to live in that state.  I will continue to live a very generous life, I will continue to show others love even if they are the ones who broke into my home or car, I will continue to raise above these circumstances to be a light for Jesus Christ.  He lived with nothing but the clothes on His back.  I have so much more than that - and I know I don't need it all.  I will not be beaten down.   I will wait upon the LORD and have  renewed strength; I will mount up with wings as eagles; I will run, and not be weary; and I will walk, and not faint. (Is. 40:31).